When it is my turn to look for a way out of this silence, I am to come down heavily upon the fact that i am not going to bring anything new with my self. I want to say a few words regarding life because i am too young to start receiving things without questioning their validity. I want to breathe some fresh air and live the way i intend for my self. It is my life that occupies me and i refuse to meddle into other people’s business. Many things informing my life require from me some proper attention and this is why i always insist that to live is not to let things happen but rather to make them happen without fear. That’s how i take it to be.
Life is not a mere game which is measured by loss and gain. This is very simplistic and suggests some vital awareness from my part. I want to take my life beyond this mistake and think of it as something much deeper and with a view of searching for my very raison d’etre. I want to give some meaning to my life. For the time being, my life has absolutely no meaning whatever. But then, for the time to come, it will be completely different if not convergent from the way it has been before and this is dependent upon what i am going to do rather than what is going to be done to me. What is done to me has already been done and it is but a mistake from my part for having allowed them to take advantage of my ignorance.
Now, it is time we ceased to think simplistically about life because life is, after all, too complex to be taken with laxness. We are called upon to open our eyes the maximum of time for everything seems to be taking its course and turning to its reverse. We are going to stop making it difficult for our selves to deal with our living. Let us juggle with it instead and learn each time that we are responsible for every mistake we are going to make. Let us take responsibility for our selves at this very juncture of history for there seems to be no other way for us except fighting and fighting and fighting and then realising the difference we are going to make possible. Nobody will ever start admonishing us for the choices we have until we start harming others. We have no intention whatever to harm anyone. We are only trying to escape death for some time and most of all oblivion. Nobody wants to die and be consigned into oblivion. There is really more enterprise in fighting because, to our minds, existence is ,indeed, a very wild and bitter struggle and not an easy exercise to be met and solved the first time we are alive.
I am attempting to be clear for this is really no place for impalpability. Pleasure is not a goal. It can be a result but not a goal. This story is something which i call a predicament for those who find a glamour of hope in sincerity and righteousness. Hard work and patience when combined will make a solid safeguard for our motives. We are to understand this from the start and then start.
Take freedom as a motive if you don’t feel it for the time being. Take it then as a motive and work very hard upon obtaining it for there is really nothing so much precious and exorbitant as freedom. It is, as i have come to dwell upon this in another respect, freedom that will make us aware of life. It is that which must belong to us sooner or later and i don’t think it will come without ardueousness. Freedom is not a luxury nor is it to be seen as restricted to some lucky ones whom we constantly refer to as being “the happy few”. They are, I think, to be held responsible for “the despondant many”. It is our nature that teaches us this extremely important lesson. We are free by nature but the second man took the life of his brother and the sad film of slavery began to be shown. Look at the trees, c’est une loi écrit dans la nature! Look at the flowers, look then at the birds, look at the sun, look at the moon, look at the stars. Look at your self now.
Freedom is so much needed. There is no escape from it except in it if ever life to some meaning is wanting. Take it back if it has been taken away. Nobody will think very ill of you but more importantly it is time to look beyond appearances. Come on, it is freedom. It is to be sought for even if everything else will start looking very badly.